This past week has been a whirlwind to me! I started my new nursing job on monday. Its at a nursing home and to be honest that not the place I exactly want to to work at. The problem is everywhere I apply to they want you to have at least a year experience. Since I just graduated, I dont have the experience. I guess the job is a good starting point for me though! I'm just grateful that have found a job that would hire a new grad!
Lately, my nasty ego has been creeping up on me and I have just been in a constant state of fear about everything. I fear that I will not be a good nurse. I fear that what I have going on with Jeff will fade away. I feel like that what I have going on with him is going so good right now that he will just stop talking to me one day and not want to see me again. These are the crazy scenarios that go on in my head! I feel like life is going so good right now and that something bad is bound to happen. I know its such a terrible way to think and feel. I feel like all this fear is turning into anxiety and I can feel it in my chest. I hate it. I need to sit my ass down tonight after I get off work and listen to some of Gabby's lectures and meditations.
On a more postive note, this weather is absolutely gorgeous!!! I hope everyone is enjoying the beautiful weather. Sending love to all of you! :)
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easier to say than do, but sometimes you just have to believe that what will be will be.
ReplyDeleteC'est la vie!