The Beginning of a New Chapter

Today it finally hit me that I was coming to an end in one chapter of my life and beginning a new one. I feel like everything is changing right now in my life from a career, to friendships, to relationships, etc. I'm so excited to see whats to come but in a way I'm terrified!! (thats the ego talking in me) I got offered a nursing job last week for a private medical practice that specializes in pain management. Its something I would be interested in so I definitely took it! I started my training for it today. I think its going to be a great place to work at!

I just put in my 2 weeks notice at the gym I have been working at for 7 years. I basically grew up there. Thats where I met pretty much all of my closest friends but its also where I lost a lot of friendships as well. Its where I met most of the guys I dated and a place where I got my heart broken too. I felt like I worked at this place for a very important couple of years of my life. I felt like I learned a lot of lessons there too! I did ALOT of growing up there!I had been waiting for this time to come where I could quit this job and move on but now that the time has come I'm extremely sad!! In a way I dont want to quit but in the end its the best thing I could do! Obviously I'm ready to get my nursing career started!!! I have been surrounded by pretty much the same people for 7 years and I wanna get out and meet new people and make new friends! Of course I wanna keep the ones that are important to me that I met there. However, there is one in particular that I met there that think I need to forgive, accept and release from my life. He has been a huge person in my life for almost 3 years now but its hard because I'm in love with him and he does not feel the same way. I have tried my hardest to seperate my feelings for him but it never works for me no matter how hard I try! Its definitely time to drop the "F" bomb on him and let go! I want to clear space for a more loving, healthy, and positive relationship with someone. I truly believe the universe will send me that relationship or assignment when she feels that its time for me to have that in my life! All I will have to do is SHOW UP!

I feel like I have a lot of work to do on myself and now is the time to do it! I just want to become absolutely happy with myself. I just want to hangout with "Stephanie" for awhile. Nurture the little girl inside me and take care of her. I realize that this is an everyday thing that I need to work on if I want to see results! Right now, I need to accept that this is where I'm supposed to be and that the universe will take care of the rest! Sending love to all of you on this wonderful monday night! :)