I was talking to one of my awesome coworkers today and we were just talking about life in general. She asked me if I had the chance to go back in time to change some things would I. I pondered that question for a minute and my first reaction was to say ABSOLUTELY but then I started to think about it more and more. I realized that all the things that have happened in my life, all the good and bad, has lead me to where I am today. I have always been one to dwell on things that happened in the past. I am realizing now after doing my ~ing work that all the situations, circumstances, heartbreak (there has been a lot of that lol), problems, tears, etc. are all lessons that I needed. Instead of constantly agonizing and dwelling over what happned in the past and wondering how I could of done things differently, I can now look back at it with a smile and a sense of peace. Those were lessons/assignments that I needed at that specific time. I have learned from them. I truly believe that the universe sent me those lessons for a specific reason and of course the universe will keep on sending me more and more for the rest of my life. Its just on how I choose to perceive those lessons. Do I want to perceive everything with love or do I want to perceive everything with hatred?.....I choose the first option!
I really feel like I am growing more and more into the person I want to be everyday! I am becoming more aware of how I think, feel, talk and act. I realized this week so far that my self talk is sabatoging and its no wonder that I have all these insecurities. I am coming to realize (this has been a very hard one for me) that I do NOT need a man to feel complete and whole. I am learning not to settle for less. I am learning (and I thank my awesome brother for this) that I do not need to be with someone just for the sake of being with someone. Honestly, its probably better that I not be with someone for awhile. I have to do major inner work and be comfortable with just being with me first. This work is extremely important to me! I want to be able to have my ~ing fired up at all times, be able to forgive easy, let go and let the universe do her thing, be able to release all resentment, smile more, keep calm, and be able to perceive everything that happens in a more loving way. I know I can have all this, it just takes a daily commitment. I need to make sure that I stay in constant contact with my ~ing everyday and be grateful for what I DO have in my life. I just have this overwhelming feeling that beautiful things are on their way!
I really feel like I am growing more and more into the person I want to be everyday! I am becoming more aware of how I think, feel, talk and act. I realized this week so far that my self talk is sabatoging and its no wonder that I have all these insecurities. I am coming to realize (this has been a very hard one for me) that I do NOT need a man to feel complete and whole. I am learning not to settle for less. I am learning (and I thank my awesome brother for this) that I do not need to be with someone just for the sake of being with someone. Honestly, its probably better that I not be with someone for awhile. I have to do major inner work and be comfortable with just being with me first. This work is extremely important to me! I want to be able to have my ~ing fired up at all times, be able to forgive easy, let go and let the universe do her thing, be able to release all resentment, smile more, keep calm, and be able to perceive everything that happens in a more loving way. I know I can have all this, it just takes a daily commitment. I need to make sure that I stay in constant contact with my ~ing everyday and be grateful for what I DO have in my life. I just have this overwhelming feeling that beautiful things are on their way!
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