Everybody Hurts Sometimes

I just realized when I write these blogs, half of the stuff I'm writing probably does not make sense lol. Oh well, I'm usually just writing whatever is on my mind at that time :)

So I was listening to REM's song "Everybody Hurts" today and finally realized that those lyrics are painfully true! Everybody does hurt at some point in life. I'm not the only one that goes through difficult situations. Although I absolutely hate to see anyone in pain, it should make you feel a little bit better that WE ALL GO THROUGH IT AT SOME POINT IN OUR LIVES! Its a very sad song but powerful lyrics!

I think I have worked enough on the feelings section of Gabby's book that I decided to step up to the forgiveness section and work on that for 30 days. Which I think is going to be one of the toughest sections for me (and I'm pretty sure its hard for a lot of other people too). I got up this morning and my thoughts were all over the place and finally my "ing" told me "Stephanie, stop crying and whining and get yourself to the gym...you will feel better" so thats what I did. Needless to say I felt a hell of a lot better after I was done working out. Of course when I was running, "Everybody Hurts" came on my Ipod shuffle lol. Not really what I wanted to hear when I'm working out lol. After I got done working out I walked a couple of laps around the track and put on Gabby's walking meditation and was really getting into it. It says to bless everyone that is around you at the time. So I was looking all around blessing people as I would walk by them. I would silently bless the man on the stairmaster or the lady on the bike and it brought a smile to my face. Then I sat down and did the forgiveness meditation and started to get all emotional but holy shit did I feel better after doing that! Its a constant work in progress but in the end it will definitely pay off! Its something I have to work at everyday.

I also received the Overcoming Negativity Addiction 8 Week Program from Denise Coates and I'm going to start that on monday. I'm extremely excited to start working on that! Its something I definitely need. I'm ready to get all that negative crap out of my head and start filling it with positive loving thoughts! Coming from an over thinker and someone thats addicted to their thoughts this is going to be a challenge but I'm ready!

I have been thinking lately of making a book and putting all my favorite positive quotes/stories/pictures etc. in it. Kind of like a vision board. I think I will start working on that either tonight or tomorrow sometime. Also, I decided to make a gratitude list and look at first thing in the morning and last thing before I go to bed or whenever I start to get frazzled/anxious/upset during the day. Here are some things on my gratitude list
I'm grateful for:
1.) My Parents - for loving me unconditionally and always being supportive of everything that I do. I truly have awesome parents!

2) Dan (my brother) - for being my best friend and the best brother I could ever ask for. for always being there for me through the good and bad times. he is my rock.

3.) Michele (my sister-in-law) - My yoda! I'm lucky to have a sister-in-law like her. I thank her for her all her wise words and love she always gives me.

4.) Gavin (my nephew) - for always putting a smile on my face whenever I see him. I could be having a terrible day and when I see that face I just start to smile. I'm so excited to be a big part in his life!

5.) Buffy (my dog) - for being my constant companion/ best little friend in the world. for always listening to me and not ever judging me! lol. she is my cuddle buddy lol

6.) My friends - i'm blessed to have such amazing friends and will be forever grateful for them

7.) My health

8.) My Job

9.) My education

10.) LOST -- haha I had to add that one in... I dont know what I'm going to do with myself when that show ends!

11.) Herfuture.com - everyone on that website is just absolutely amazing! I'm grateful for all the kind/loving/wise words I hear from all the amazing women on that site.